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for some reason I keep wanting to say "riddle me this."
I have no idea why... I also have nothing to say afterward.
really strange I know! I think it's stress related or something.
another month has passed and we are here again...
time for me to explain myself and pretend to be all motivated.
I have honestly SUCKED at this list... let's take a look.

here's what I've done:

1. New York City for New Years. it was a lot of fun and I am really glad that this was on my list.  I'm not sure I will do it again... but it was definitely worth the one time!
2. run a 5k in under 45 minutes.  uh, it was 44 minutes... still counts but I am looking to improve it.
3. be super shallow and grow my hair out. working on it. they barista at Starbucks just mentioned to me how long it is getting... a compliment and a low blow all at the same time.
4. pay off my credit card debt. this one was hard and I am glad it is finished! now if only I could win the lotto to finish off all of these loans...
5. blog consistently. this is going fairly well, I know for a lot of people they blog way more in the winter than the do in the summer. I am just not like that. it is cold out and all I want to do is be lazy.. I don't want to think or type. so bring on the warm weather!!
6. work on having a more positive out look. of course some things that I put on my list are a process and this is one of them. but I think the process is underway and I am doing a fairly decent job.

here's what I need to do:

1. get my ass to California
2. visit 5 more states to achieve visiting 20/50 
3. finish my portfolio
4. be accepted into my Masters program - which for the record I am one step closer!
5. lose 40 more pounds.  I joined a dietbet [dietbet.com] so I will be nearly 10lbs closer next time I update!
6. pay off at least one student loan
7. work on the house... sigh.
8. work on my photography [warm weather please!!]
9. stop swearing.  I already swear a lot less... this has been quite a challenge!
10. EARN 500 followers on this here blog
11. find a job that I enjoy
12. go sky diving
13. start a 401K
14. do something helpful or kind of someone with no recognition. I tried.. but they wouldn't accept. long story.
15. donate plasma
16. read and finish 4.5 more books
17. start and complete a scrapbook [top secret]
18. have my fortune read

so really... if you look back, 

I have done one thing since last time.

I am a sad unmotivated individual.. sighhhhhhh 

to change this I have decided to pick a few,

break the list down a little.

so, by April 13th I vow to have:

finished 1.5 books
lost 7-10lbs, and
finished my portfolio

that seems like a pretty good amount to tackle in a month.

XXO Amanda

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