this might possibly be a rant..

I think my blog has gotten boring. do you know what? I think I have gotten boring!
I haven't really been doing very much so there hasn't been much to talk about...
lame, right? it's a little early in this entire situation to be boring!

I start school again soon. next week actually. I'm sure that will give me a lot to bitch about!
coming back from that vacation and getting back into the swing of blogging and working has been difficult. excuses, excuses, right? gross.

you know how when you have a lot going on, or a lot of stress and thoughts in your mind, you just shut down and do nothing? the fear of starting is so overwhelming that you don't know what to do with yourself? well that is where I am...

my list continues to grow while my actions stay minimal

• get back on track health wise: stop being so damn lazy, just run because I like it. cook and eat healthy because I feel and look so much better when I do!
• finish my portfolio. do you know that I have been taking grad classes for like... 2.5 years now for a program that I am not exactly accepted in? (it's complicated)
• finish my portfolio to get an awesome job! why is it that you can hate(ish) your job but do nothing to change it?
• create some sort of design based resume. word doc resume is not what I need in this field.. what the eff am I doing!? clearly nothing.
• just go. go take photos, travel, go places after work. whatever the heck, just GO!
• edit photos? why do I have like 3000 photos and 100 of them are edited? oh yeah because those 100 were for work. dumb.
• get out of debt, its only a little debt to get rid of before I can start paying towards my loans... I don't know why I can't just stop being dumb and spending money on really dumb things..

it will be better tomorrow.. okay? let's all believe that!